confidence

I'm not a very self confident person and I struggle to make decisions if people would judge me for it, such as making youtube videos, I love watching them, making them and I really want to upload them but I'm too worried, I'm worried that the people I know would judge me and bully me for them. I wish I had the confidence of macbarbie07 or stilababe09. I wish I had the confidence of 1 of my best friends, Courtney. She's an inspiration, she doesn't make youtube videos but she wants to, it's a parental issue. But with every choice she makes she doesnt think 'oh, what would they think if they found out?' Or.. 'they'd bully me if they knew' and I respect her for that, honestly. I'm so happy that she's in my life, enough of the cheesy jibba jabba now :-)! Byeeeeeee.